Did you missed me? Here I ever was. The gutter you screamed when your veins hurt from the death inside me, all I ever am is the reminder of times you were down and you crawled inside your shell for shultter, the times you were up and you defind what life is under a minute. Did you heared? The times are changing forever, catch up to the rhythm that's always the same. Did you know? Nothing is the same and you wonder now, what are those things I said? Do you remember?
Do you remember the pain inside as you tried and see all yourself to come to the beginning of something you couldn't make up your mind what? A thrill there is to endure this silence as your mind was away from where it was supposed to be.
Do you feel it? There is nothing there that wasn't explained. You see what you need to, hear what you want to, scream what are you? Did everything got shallowed by this need to see everything? Can you hear yourself cry inside as you leave yourself behind? Say it out loud, I will scream it for you, what are you when you leave yourself die for something better? Is there a differance in the way I did say that of these are forgotten, left behind, in the dark, away from me, in the past? Did all your hopes failed to the moment you choosed to see, what is the difference between sanity and error?
Is your face covered with the understanding what is to feel this roar? The gutter you gave away just feel your soul die to this moment you gave it all away to feel this insanity twisted to see straight to your mind. Do you get it know? I take it all back and my shadow I will leave forever here to you to haunt you. Is it all ok? Now you can take your time and wonder what's to be in this life? What is doing nothing and have it all. Now it's time you manage yourself through this. No one can help you and no one will. You are left alone in this darkness to find yourself admit, this is not a goodbye, this is what you want to, you can see it as you need to, hear it as you want to, say again fuck you this is over, I got enough, I reached the end of this world inside me and gave roots to something that I can't stand. Tell me again this is not what I feel, all my faith rest to this fucking something was nothing but understanding myself. I am not all the pain that rests scarred inside me, my wounds have healed to know this. I can't see anymore the use of this but there is something more I need to see, another thing to hear and my voice so calmy sick, I don't even know what I am anymore I have lost all my life inside this darkness and anymore I can't see a part of me inside this world. I gave myself away and left my body naked pretending that's the way I was born. I can't see anymore, I have lost the track of time as I spin to this hell I'm brought to survive but I have let go of myself deep inside this sea drowning and I just wait for a shore. The waves have crushed all my egos to this large place I can feel comfort and at last I catched myself dreaming of a piece of what I am even there though, I am shattered to a million places at once. I pick up what's left of me and I move on. I have forgotten the meaning two lines back and I am left to see what is left for me to recall. I don't remember but I certainly know that myself I can't give away, I can't be inside this. I am what left of my remains I picked up, these I threw away and those I am obligated to respect even if I don't need to. I am what the fuck I want so please shut the fuck up and let me live. Be all you need to believe.